Hi everyone,
I am new to this forum. I recently have developed health anxiety so bad that Im really going insane or I feel like it. Hypochondria runs in my family and Ive always been a little health conscience. It got really bad when I slept with this guy I met about a year ago. Then I started thinking I possibly had HIV etc. I still wonder if I have an STD although not really any symptoms. I find myself uncontrollably typing in online "symptoms of" "causes of". I have a major fear of becoming very ill or dying. I wonder if I maybe if I have or might be getting cancer, MS, Parkinson's disease, a tumor somewhere in my body, specifically in my brain. It really is crazy. I have anxiety/social anxiety in general but this is about the worst thing ever.
First of all I do seem to have quite a few health issues, like problems with blood sugar sometimes, bad pms, thyroid nodules(benign), and back and neck problems.Right now I'm getting help for my back/neck since that is seriously a bad problem for me. I know the pain and discomfort has caused a lot of my anxiety, but still I tend to look up something online all the time and somehow I truely have all the symptoms. Lately my left arm seems to tremble when I hold it in a certain position...next to my body. I think its like a muscle twitch or something. Its making me think..what if I am getting Parkinson's or I have some neurological problem. I'm pretty sure its a strained muscle or something, but who knows. It's really worrying me. I had a MRI of my neck..but I should have of my brain or Im thinking I should have. I really hate the internet and I wish I had never discovered it! I know I would be a lot better off. Im sure a lot of you feel the same way. I have developed some panic disorder from worrying about my health. So now Im dealing with that, hypochondria, social anxiety, depression with mood swings.
Anyways, for a long time I absolutely CAN NOT keep my mind off of my health. Every time I even hear someone else that is diagnosed with a condition, I automatically go online and look it up and somehow I often have a lot of the symptoms. I can't hardly sleep at night from worrying about things. Some nights I sleep better..some nights I hardly do at all. In the past year, Ive been to more doctors than in my entire life. The gynocologist, the urologist, the opthamologist and lots more. There are too many to list. I seriously feel like maybe my thyroid is messed up or Im getting diabetes but I dont know. My doctor seems to think most of it is linked to anxiety. I wont take medication, because Im scared of the side effects or withdrawal effects. There really may be some underlying cause for all my little issues, but I am beginning to realize that I really am mentally ill. I cant stop thinking about my health. I can't stop fearing being very ill. I really need someone to talk with that is going through the same thing. If you want to talk through email or a messenger that would be great although I can talk on here of course too. I would really like a one on one chat. Thanks for listening.
I am new to this forum. I recently have developed health anxiety so bad that Im really going insane or I feel like it. Hypochondria runs in my family and Ive always been a little health conscience. It got really bad when I slept with this guy I met about a year ago. Then I started thinking I possibly had HIV etc. I still wonder if I have an STD although not really any symptoms. I find myself uncontrollably typing in online "symptoms of" "causes of". I have a major fear of becoming very ill or dying. I wonder if I maybe if I have or might be getting cancer, MS, Parkinson's disease, a tumor somewhere in my body, specifically in my brain. It really is crazy. I have anxiety/social anxiety in general but this is about the worst thing ever.
First of all I do seem to have quite a few health issues, like problems with blood sugar sometimes, bad pms, thyroid nodules(benign), and back and neck problems.Right now I'm getting help for my back/neck since that is seriously a bad problem for me. I know the pain and discomfort has caused a lot of my anxiety, but still I tend to look up something online all the time and somehow I truely have all the symptoms. Lately my left arm seems to tremble when I hold it in a certain position...next to my body. I think its like a muscle twitch or something. Its making me think..what if I am getting Parkinson's or I have some neurological problem. I'm pretty sure its a strained muscle or something, but who knows. It's really worrying me. I had a MRI of my neck..but I should have of my brain or Im thinking I should have. I really hate the internet and I wish I had never discovered it! I know I would be a lot better off. Im sure a lot of you feel the same way. I have developed some panic disorder from worrying about my health. So now Im dealing with that, hypochondria, social anxiety, depression with mood swings.
Anyways, for a long time I absolutely CAN NOT keep my mind off of my health. Every time I even hear someone else that is diagnosed with a condition, I automatically go online and look it up and somehow I often have a lot of the symptoms. I can't hardly sleep at night from worrying about things. Some nights I sleep better..some nights I hardly do at all. In the past year, Ive been to more doctors than in my entire life. The gynocologist, the urologist, the opthamologist and lots more. There are too many to list. I seriously feel like maybe my thyroid is messed up or Im getting diabetes but I dont know. My doctor seems to think most of it is linked to anxiety. I wont take medication, because Im scared of the side effects or withdrawal effects. There really may be some underlying cause for all my little issues, but I am beginning to realize that I really am mentally ill. I cant stop thinking about my health. I can't stop fearing being very ill. I really need someone to talk with that is going through the same thing. If you want to talk through email or a messenger that would be great although I can talk on here of course too. I would really like a one on one chat. Thanks for listening.
